So in my mind...

(2014)

Questo il titolo del primo concept album, uscito nel 2014. Rappresenta un circolo che inizia con la canzone “SILVERSNAKE” e termina con “SILVERSNAKE SLOW STEPS”.

La prima canzone rappresenta un suicidio virtuale. Gli altri brani vogliono segnare un percorso di rinascita.

Mi tuffo nel passato e lo rivivo attraverso esperienze piuttosto dolorose riferite anche alla mia infanzia e aspetto ieri ”per poter riaffrontare e rielaborare con spirito adulto il vissuto (WAITING FOR YESTERDAY).

Ricordi dell’adolescenza e la voglia di colorare quell’arcobaleno che giorno dopo giorno diventava sempre più grigio, insulso e vuoto di vita e la consapevolezza di aver nascosto io stessa le chiavi della prigione in cui mi sono rinchiusa. (COLORS OF MEMORY – “I know I hid the key of my hell-jail…Day by day, rainbow is grey).

La sensazione di essere un’entità fatta di luce (PUDDLES OF LIGHT).

Mi chiedevo cosa avrei potuto fare per sentirmi viva, qualcosa di emozionante, trasgressivo, adrenalinico qualcosa che nessuno aveva mai fatto prima. Qualcosa, qualsiasi cosa …così ho deciso di rubare il sole (I STEAL THE SUN).

Mentre prendo coscienza del mio dolore, la rabbia sale e comincio a odiarmi. Silversnake diventa la parte cattiva che prende il comando e “disegna” una Michelle vittima, che non ha più il controllo delle sue azioni e della sua vita (UNDER MY PENCIL).

SNOWY racconta una storia d’amore molto tormentata dove vi sono finalmente emozioni forti e sofferenza, dopo un lungo periodo in cui il mio cuore era indurito, apatico e insensibile e mi ha procurato quella sensazione di essere bella e giovane e la voglia di quello stordimento d’amore e di sesso come gioco (NUMB).

Il cerchio si chiude con versione acustica di SILVERNSNAKE SLOW STEPS, ma con un tonalità differente e con un testo differente in cui sono citati tutti i titoli delle canzoni dell’album. Rappresenta i “passi lenti”, consapevolezza del Sè.


CREDITI

Music and Lyrics by Silversnake Michelle

Vocals: Silversnake Michelle

Guitars: Dario Arena

Keyboards and additional guitars: Daniele Marchetti

Bass: Dario Arena

Drums: Paola Caridi

All tracks arranged by Dario Arena and Daniele Marchetti

Produced by Silversnake Michelle

Recorded at 10Db Studios - Milano (Italy)

Sound engineer and mixing: Roberto Centamore

Sleeve Concept: Silversnake Michelle and Daniele Marchetti

Photos: Massimo Santo

RINGRAZIAMENTI

Federico

Enzo

Stefano Stranges

Natalia Brandani

Dino Brentali

FLAM Music Studio

Everybody who helped me, in some way, to find my life in music.

A special thanks to Silversnake Michelle,

that finally set free my real spirit.


TESTI

SILVERSNAKE

Starry night of lazy fall

I’ll tell myself deepest lie

You know, I see you though if you’re only ghost

Slender moon in the sky

I implored the rain to melt my hardened heart

I prayed for the wind to kidnap me

All my life I‘ve stopped at the start line

Now I've fallen into a black and thick sea


So in my mind, was born SilverSnake

Chasing the dragon now, you lick my brain


I felt the cold stone whisper to me

Trapped in a smell of flowers

I don’t see colors and sounds of history

my sweaty skin and wheezing hours

A nightmare screamed at me 4 and 48

I feel your time is over

your shadow flies away beyond the clouds

I can’t feel your essence anywhere


So in my mind, was born SilverSnake

Your insanity sucked my brain


And walking on my mistakes

I’ll see a new life on the horizon.

And breaking this golden cage

I feel the lie of my freedom

And walking on my mistakes

I scratched the walls of darkness

And breaking this golden cage

I feel the night in brightness


A bird deceives me and steals away my soul

My emotions are lost in time

tears of rain slip away from my cold face

This is the finish line


You know I know you’re praying for Silversnake

Your insanity turned off my brain.

COLORS OF MEMORY

I wanna live forever,

You’re listening sounds of memory

The sugar of freedom snows on us

White Lady come and kiss me

“You’re looking at the wrong way to follow”

Disheartened black trees shout to me

Blurred borders of

Liquefied reality

So many walls I’ve painted

One, none, hundred thousand me

My stubborn and moody nature

Spiteful ghosts silver me…


And I’m flying around this wave…


The raging blue sea is trapping me

Green leaves on tree are dancing with

Your breathing blows light inside of me

My Empty body… disappears


Shine you shadow of memory

Seize colors of harmony

I know I hid the key of my dark(hell) jail

Day by day

Rainbow grey

I dig the ocean and I fall in a grave

Blue and red

Stay in bed

Thundery colors in my head


I wanna live forever

I’m looking shapes of memory

It’s raining golden lemons

Sunflowers try to kill me

“You’re looking at the wrong way to follow”

spiteful ghosts whisper to me


The raging blue sea is trapping me

Green leaves on tree are dancing with

Your breath blows light inside of me…


Shine shadows of memory

Seize colours of harmony

I know I hid the key of my jail-hell

Day by day

Rainbow grey

I dig myself and I fall in a grave

Blue and red

Stay in bed

Thundery colours in my head


…I wanna live forever

You’re listening voice of eternity…

PUDDLES OF LIGHT

Never turn around, fly away

I didn’t tell you what you said to me

Don’t think of me cause we are losers

The story of Earth has never been

Ten million of years in so few time

All our lives we already lived

We are only a projection of a far light

Now we belong to the dreams of stars

The truth in front of me

Erased by oblivion of eternity


Following you

Puddles of light stab my past now

The endless edge seems wet paper

Land and air interlace

Rock my fanta-lie

Fuck my mind,

My story is you

Stop again


Turn off the light, so I can’t exist

Blue butterflies get lost in the mist

Brook of sand dry up my eyes

Flecks of light give us new gist

I STEAL THE SUN

I’ m ready and I’m not alone

Great perturbation of mind

Tonight my soul is criminal

I stole dark through light

Unattended Chariot of the Sun

The golden Horses of Fire

My emotions are cold and minimal

I’ll steal sun through the Night


They have fear of the light

Put your love in that sound

Free from superstitions

Lick the blue


They have fear of the light

Cold and expressionless game

Free from our freedom

We can do


Driving, speeding, challenge them

We’re awake to danger and

They won’t take us

We make it

The plot thickens now


Jump away and laugh aloud

Defy the gravity is not allowed

Fuck the right way, the wrong way

Tonight I steal the Sun


On TV big news tonight

The day will never rise

The sadness of Northern Star

Blanket cold come on in leaden sky


They have fear of the light

Put your love in that sound

Free from superstitions

Lick the blue


They have fear of the light

Cold and expressionless game

Free from our freedom

We can do


Driving, speeding, challenge them

We’re awake to danger and

They won’t take us

We make it

The plot thickens now


Jump away and laugh aloud

Defy the gravity is not allowed

Fuck the right way, the wrong way

Tonight I steal the Sun

UNDER MY PENCIL

You believe that somebody wants to delay

You feel my pencil graze your wave

I wanna portray you in sunny way

But in the picture it’s rainy day

Vertigo of my fancies smoke away


I play with your imaginary world

You’re born under my pencil-mind

And the sense of life are slowly blinds

while we getting old, tonight

Vertigo of my fancies run away


Show me when

Show me why

Show me how

You feel tears and joy, emotions in your unreal mind


You are a victim of mine

o-o-o-o-ohh

You’ll never decide

You run away through the pines

o-o-o-o-ohh

but I lead your actions and life

I need you here cause I feel alone,

You need me there cause you need my blow

You wander in the fog…without me


I’m painting you with a red knife

I only keep the secret of your life

I repress all revolts of your mind

You’re only puppet in my hands , tonight.

Vertigo of my fancies smoke away


Show me when

(I can’t explain what I am

I’m the star of show

I don’t need to create a song

Cause I’ll never be alone

You forget who you are

And your pencil draws my life

And I feel the being of me)

Show me why

Show me how

You feel tears and joy, emotions in your unreal mind


You are a victim of mine

o-o-o-o-ohh

You’ll never decide

You run away through the pines

o-o-o-o-ohh

but I lead your actions and life

I need you here cause I feel alone,

You need me there cause you need my blow

You wander in the fog… without me

WAITING FOR YESTERDAY

Overwhelming emotions get tired of chasing you

Following you in useless promises

But you have a strange way to love; I don’t need to

And now I’m naked and dressed of dust

Squared sphere, its running over me

Silent words that wear me out

I suddenly lost my past’s empire

I’m breathing your hugs tonight


And now the sunset was turning red

I breath your smell through a photograph

And the dead seasons wanked becoming dread

Our shady love becoming bust and bad

Now swallows change the zephyr’s wake

Pink scorpions have broken the wall of break

Your cruel words are creeping into my head like a snake

Child’s fear resurfaces


We are staring at dawn

Waiting for yesterday

Don’t you pray?

New uprising

In your heart

I scream till I die of myself

Stinking night


Faceless man injured the lily of my childhood

I feel interrupted, here and now

Sick, jerky and raging masturbation of body and mind

Hold me strong, mofo night

SNOWY

Among the firs, I saw the evening singing awake

and you choke in a meaningless whirl

I read in you, I won’t forsake

sand buries your nerve and your pearl


I feel the passion of your kisses on my lips

but your fear pinch your heart with tips,

mirror murmurs and whispers you

words written in my trips


Nothing is more snowy

than two souls who’re skimming like ours,

but if you run away from me

once again you will hide your flowers


Tonight for the first time we met the Love

The wild and overbearing fire

you are a dream in my heart


Tears dig furrows inside of me

everything is clear in me

doubt lies around


And tonight when we made love

The stars flow mute and lead my secret above

you go away, loneliness frame

Feel me full of shame, cause I feel we flame

but you disclaim it and

yourself


I hated the evening suffering the gift of love

monotonous and deadwood at home

I slump, but I challenge my mistakes

and I will win, I win, I won


Nothing is more snowy

than two hearts in desert that chase for years

You won’t believe weak lies I’ll say

Don’t hurt me, don’t doom my fears

NUMB

I’ve got a secret,

And I won’t tell you

A boring night is killing me

There is a dry, hot and rarified air

Velvet rain ravishes and burns my fire


Red-hot night in orgy game

Passion borns through colors of sounds

Dripping words, written in the sky of fame

I see your love that stifles all the clouds


Touch me

Kiss me

Love me

Together we rain

Catch me

Leave me

Dreaming

I’ve got no pain


There is a wall in the ocean

One side is black, otherside is blue

You play guitar towards sunset of night

Mermaid’s dance is already begun


Rescue me from myself

You kiss me and I feel numb

A black sword into my heart

Can’t stop and I ride the bird of paradise

SILVERSNAKE SLOW STEPS (Unplugged)

Lazy night of a starry fall

I told myself new lies

I don’t surrender and I fight against my wall

I’m looking at the moon and She’s crying


I met faeries dark orgasm of my past

and black creatures of the Night

Heinous, evil thick sea make me blasted

I steal the sun through puddles of light


So in my mind gets strong Silversnake (Where are you tonight?)

My insanity shake your brain


Walking and praying day by day

Anticlockwise life is not astray

Waiting for yesterday

Inside of me... disarray


Walking on my mistakes

I live new life over horizon

And breaking that golden cage

There is no lie in my freedom


Crazy nights of tears to pick up my life

Becoming warrior of the Light,

Under my pencil, I imagine the end of strife

Colors of memory will bright


So in my mind gets numb Silversnake (I sold my mind, tonight?)

My whims defy your snowy pain


Walking and praying day by day

Anticlockwise life is not astray

Waiting for yesterday

Inside of me... disarray


Walking on my mistakes

I graze the walls of darkness

And breaking that golden cage

I met the light in the darkness

Starry night of lazy fall

I’ll tell myself deepest lie

You know, I see you though if you’re only ghost

Slender moon in the sky

I implored the rain to melt my hardened heart

I prayed for the wind to kidnap me

All my life I‘ve stopped at the start line

Now I've fallen into a black and thick sea


So in my mind, was born SilverSnake

Chasing the dragon now, you lick my brain


I felt the cold stone whisper to me

Trapped in a smell of flowers

I don’t see colors and sounds of history

my sweaty skin and wheezing hours

A nightmare screamed at me 4 and 48

I feel your time is over

your shadow flies away beyond the clouds

I can’t feel your essence anywhere


So in my mind, was born SilverSnake

Your insanity sucked my brain


And walking on my mistakes

I’ll see a new life on the horizon.

And breaking this golden cage

I feel the lie of my freedom

And walking on my mistakes

I scratched the walls of darkness

And breaking this golden cage

I feel the night in brightness


A bird deceives me and steals away my soul

My emotions are lost in time

tears of rain slip away from my cold face

This is the finish line


You know I know you’re praying for Silversnake

Your insanity turned off my brain.

I wanna live forever,

You’re listening sounds of memory

The sugar of freedom snows on us

White Lady come and kiss me

“You’re looking at the wrong way to follow”

Disheartened black trees shout to me

Blurred borders of

Liquefied reality

So many walls I’ve painted

One, none, hundred thousand me

My stubborn and moody nature

Spiteful ghosts silver me…


And I’m flying around this wave…


The raging blue sea is trapping me

Green leaves on tree are dancing with

Your breathing blows light inside of me

My Empty body… disappears


Shine you shadow of memory

Seize colors of harmony

I know I hid the key of my dark(hell) jail

Day by day

Rainbow grey

I dig the ocean and I fall in a grave

Blue and red

Stay in bed

Thundery colors in my head


I wanna live forever

I’m looking shapes of memory

It’s raining golden lemons

Sunflowers try to kill me

“You’re looking at the wrong way to follow”

spiteful ghosts whisper to me


The raging blue sea is trapping me

Green leaves on tree are dancing with

Your breath blows light inside of me…


Shine shadows of memory

Seize colours of harmony

I know I hid the key of my jail-hell

Day by day

Rainbow grey

I dig myself and I fall in a grave

Blue and red

Stay in bed

Thundery colours in my head


…I wanna live forever

You’re listening voice of eternity…

Never turn around, fly away

I didn’t tell you what you said to me

Don’t think of me cause we are losers

The story of Earth has never been

Ten million of years in so few time

All our lives we already lived

We are only a projection of a far light

Now we belong to the dreams of stars

The truth in front of me

Erased by oblivion of eternity


Following you

Puddles of light stab my past now

The endless edge seems wet paper

Land and air interlace

Rock my fanta-lie

Fuck my mind,

My story is you

Stop again


Turn off the light, so I can’t exist

Blue butterflies get lost in the mist

Brook of sand dry up my eyes

Flecks of light give us new gist

I’ m ready and I’m not alone

Great perturbation of mind

Tonight my soul is criminal

I stole dark through light

Unattended Chariot of the Sun

The golden Horses of Fire

My emotions are cold and minimal

I’ll steal sun through the Night


They have fear of the light

Put your love in that sound

Free from superstitions

Lick the blue


They have fear of the light

Cold and expressionless game

Free from our freedom

We can do


Driving, speeding, challenge them

We’re awake to danger and

They won’t take us

We make it

The plot thickens now


Jump away and laugh aloud

Defy the gravity is not allowed

Fuck the right way, the wrong way

Tonight I steal the Sun


On TV big news tonight

The day will never rise

The sadness of Northern Star

Blanket cold come on in leaden sky


They have fear of the light

Put your love in that sound

Free from superstitions

Lick the blue


They have fear of the light

Cold and expressionless game

Free from our freedom

We can do


Driving, speeding, challenge them

We’re awake to danger and

They won’t take us

We make it

The plot thickens now


Jump away and laugh aloud

Defy the gravity is not allowed

Fuck the right way, the wrong way

Tonight I steal the Sun

You believe that somebody wants to delay

You feel my pencil graze your wave

I wanna portray you in sunny way

But in the picture it’s rainy day

Vertigo of my fancies smoke away


I play with your imaginary world

You’re born under my pencil-mind

And the sense of life are slowly blinds

while we getting old, tonight

Vertigo of my fancies run away


Show me when

Show me why

Show me how

You feel tears and joy, emotions in your unreal mind


You are a victim of mine

o-o-o-o-ohh

You’ll never decide

You run away through the pines

o-o-o-o-ohh

but I lead your actions and life

I need you here cause I feel alone,

You need me there cause you need my blow

You wander in the fog…without me


I’m painting you with a red knife

I only keep the secret of your life

I repress all revolts of your mind

You’re only puppet in my hands , tonight.

Vertigo of my fancies smoke away


Show me when

(I can’t explain what I am

I’m the star of show

I don’t need to create a song

Cause I’ll never be alone

You forget who you are

And your pencil draws my life

And I feel the being of me)

Show me why

Show me how

You feel tears and joy, emotions in your unreal mind


You are a victim of mine

o-o-o-o-ohh

You’ll never decide

You run away through the pines

o-o-o-o-ohh

but I lead your actions and life

I need you here cause I feel alone,

You need me there cause you need my blow

You wander in the fog… without me

Overwhelming emotions get tired of chasing you

Following you in useless promises

But you have a strange way to love; I don’t need to

And now I’m naked and dressed of dust

Squared sphere, its running over me

Silent words that wear me out

I suddenly lost my past’s empire

I’m breathing your hugs tonight


And now the sunset was turning red

I breath your smell through a photograph

And the dead seasons wanked becoming dread

Our shady love becoming bust and bad

Now swallows change the zephyr’s wake

Pink scorpions have broken the wall of break

Your cruel words are creeping into my head like a snake

Child’s fear resurfaces


We are staring at dawn

Waiting for yesterday

Don’t you pray?

New uprising

In your heart

I scream till I die of myself

Stinking night


Faceless man injured the lily of my childhood

I feel interrupted, here and now

Sick, jerky and raging masturbation of body and mind

Hold me strong, mofo night

Among the firs, I saw the evening singing awake

and you choke in a meaningless whirl

I read in you, I won’t forsake

sand buries your nerve and your pearl


I feel the passion of your kisses on my lips

but your fear pinch your heart with tips,

mirror murmurs and whispers you

words written in my trips


Nothing is more snowy

than two souls who’re skimming like ours,

but if you run away from me

once again you will hide your flowers


Tonight for the first time we met the Love

The wild and overbearing fire

you are a dream in my heart


Tears dig furrows inside of me

everything is clear in me

doubt lies around


And tonight when we made love

The stars flow mute and lead my secret above

you go away, loneliness frame

Feel me full of shame, cause I feel we flame

but you disclaim it and

yourself


I hated the evening suffering the gift of love

monotonous and deadwood at home

I slump, but I challenge my mistakes

and I will win, I win, I won


Nothing is more snowy

than two hearts in desert that chase for years

You won’t believe weak lies I’ll say

Don’t hurt me, don’t doom my fears

I’ve got a secret,

And I won’t tell you

A boring night is killing me

There is a dry, hot and rarified air

Velvet rain ravishes and burns my fire


Red-hot night in orgy game

Passion borns through colors of sounds

Dripping words, written in the sky of fame

I see your love that stifles all the clouds


Touch me

Kiss me

Love me

Together we rain

Catch me

Leave me

Dreaming

I’ve got no pain


There is a wall in the ocean

One side is black, otherside is blue

You play guitar towards sunset of night

Mermaid’s dance is already begun


Rescue me from myself

You kiss me and I feel numb

A black sword into my heart

Can’t stop and I ride the bird of paradise

Lazy night of a starry fall

I told myself new lies

I don’t surrender and I fight against my wall

I’m looking at the moon and She’s crying


I met faeries dark orgasm of my past

and black creatures of the Night

Heinous, evil thick sea make me blasted

I steal the sun through puddles of light


So in my mind gets strong Silversnake (Where are you tonight?)

My insanity shake your brain


Walking and praying day by day

Anticlockwise life is not astray

Waiting for yesterday

Inside of me... disarray


Walking on my mistakes

I live new life over horizon

And breaking that golden cage

There is no lie in my freedom


Crazy nights of tears to pick up my life

Becoming warrior of the Light,

Under my pencil, I imagine the end of strife

Colors of memory will bright


So in my mind gets numb Silversnake (I sold my mind, tonight?)

My whims defy your snowy pain


Walking and praying day by day

Anticlockwise life is not astray

Waiting for yesterday

Inside of me... disarray


Walking on my mistakes

I graze the walls of darkness

And breaking that golden cage

I met the light in the darkness

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