How Silversnake Michelle was born

Silversnake Michelle the birth of my character

Hi, everybody.
Let me introduce myself.
I'm Micaela, aka Silversnake Michelle. I'm 39 years old.
Until 2007 my life was a very ordinary life, I graduated in law and I became a lawyer. I got married and worked in law firms. As a hobby I acted at theatre and, on the side, I was a model and hostess at trade exhibitions.
Then in 2007 I got pregnant without knowing it, but above all without wanting to.
I know how to have children, but the doctors told me that I could never, so I took this statement as a natural contraceptive. But no...
So in October 2007 my son was born... well what I felt is not exactly like is told or thought... I was scared, I had a sense of frustration because my body was changed... and I had the responsibility of a tiny little being depending on me... me that I wasn't able to take care of myself either.
The whole thing scared me, but I got into Mom's role pretty well. Yes, I said well... in the role...
Because that wasn't me... everyone was telling me what to do and how to behave as a mother... and I was literally following the instructions even when I would behave otherwise. But what else is new? In order to be accepted, I always sacrificed my identity in favor of something that could have the approval... But this time the epilogue would have been very different, and I didn't know it yet...
I didn't last long and when my baby was about 18 months old I began to feel the need to revive my side that I had always gradually wiped out.

I started singing, attending a sacred music choir (well, I started from afar...).
Then I felt the need to regain self-confidence on my body and I did burlesque and pole dancing, and then I was dragged to sing in a rock band... a short experience because I was scared to really be myself for the first time...
And so I choked it all up again.
I didn't feel quite adequate in being me... I needed someone to give me clearance to free my true soul and to be approved by the world... I wasn't ready to face myself, but something was pawing inside...
I decided to expose myself by doing burlesque and creating a character that could be really free, even if it was only a character after all...
I didn’t realize that, just in that moment, I was really myself...
But that didn't please me, it wasn't enough for me: I didn't just need to show myself "naked"... I needed to create and to create myself...

One day in January 2012, I learned the news of the suicide of a friend of mine… and I realized a terrible truth: I had died too, for a long time.
That was the worst and most beautiful moment at the same time.
I let myself die completely and from those ashes came to life Silversnake Michelle, a strong and rebellious alter ego, that with power and aggressiveness has brought out and still brings out the real Me.