So in my mind...

(2014)

Questo il titolo del primo concept album, uscito nel 2014. Rappresenta un circolo che inizia con la canzone “SILVERSNAKE” e termina con “SILVERSNAKE SLOW STEPS”.
La prima canzone rappresenta un suicidio virtuale. Gli altri brani vogliono segnare un percorso di rinascita.
Mi tuffo nel passato e lo rivivo attraverso esperienze piuttosto dolorose riferite anche alla mia infanzia e aspetto ieri” per poter riaffrontare e rielaborare con spirito adulto il vissuto (WAITING FOR YESTERDAY).
Ricordi dell’adolescenza e la voglia di colorare quell’arcobaleno che giorno dopo giorno diventava sempre più grigio, insulso e vuoto di vita e la consapevolezza di aver nascosto io stessa le chiavi della prigione in cui mi sono rinchiusa. (COLORS OF MEMORY – “I know I hid the key of my hell-jail…Day by day, rainbow is grey).
La sensazione di essere un’entità fatta di luce (PUDDLES OF LIGHT).
Mi chiedevo cosa avrei potuto fare per sentirmi viva, qualcosa di emozionante, trasgressivo, adrenalinico qualcosa che nessuno aveva mai fatto prima. Qualcosa, qualsiasi cosa …così ho deciso di rubare il sole (I STEAL THE SUN).
Mentre prendo coscienza del mio dolore, la rabbia sale e comincio a odiarmi. Silversnake diventa la parte cattiva che prende il comando e “disegna” una Michelle vittima, che non ha più il controllo delle sue azioni e della sua vita (UNDER MY PENCIL).
SNOWY racconta una storia d’amore molto tormentata dove vi sono finalmente emozioni forti e sofferenza, dopo un lungo periodo in cui il mio cuore era indurito, apatico e insensibile e mi ha procurato quella sensazione di essere bella e giovane e la voglia di quello stordimento d’amore e di sesso come gioco (NUMB).
Il cerchio si chiude con versione acustica di SILVERNSNAKE SLOW STEPS, ma con un tonalità differente e con un testo differente in cui sono citati tutti i titoli delle canzoni dell’album. Rappresenta i “passi lenti”, consapevolezza del Sè.


CREDITI

Music and Lyrics by Silversnake Michelle

Vocals: Silversnake Michelle

Guitars: Dario Arena

Keyboards and additional guitars: Daniele Marchetti

Bass: Dario Arena

Drums: Paola Caridi

All tracks arranged by Dario Arena and Daniele Marchetti

Produced by Silversnake Michelle

Recorded at 10Db Studios - Milano (Italy)

Sound engineer and mixing: Roberto Centamore

Sleeve Concept: Silversnake Michelle and Daniele Marchetti

Photos: Massimo Santo

RINGRAZIAMENTI

Federico

Enzo

Stefano Stranges

Natalia Brandani

Dino Brentali

FLAM Music Studio

Everybody who helped me, in some way, to find my life in music.

A special thanks to Silversnake Michelle,

that finally set free my real spirit.


STREAMING AUDIO

TESTI

Silversnake

Starry night of lazy fall
I’ll tell myself deepest lie
You know, I see you though if you’re only ghost
Slender moon in the sky
I implored the rain to melt my hardened heart
I prayed for the wind to kidnap me
All my life I‘ve stopped at the start line
Now I've fallen into a black and thick sea

So in my mind, was born SilverSnake
Chasing the dragon now, you lick my brain

I felt the cold stone whisper to me
Trapped in a smell of flowers
I don’t see colors and sounds of history
my sweaty skin and wheezing hours
A nightmare screamed at me 4 and 48
I feel your time is over
your shadow flies away beyond the clouds
I can’t feel your essence anywhere

So in my mind, was born SilverSnake
Your insanity sucked my brain

And walking on my mistakes
I’ll see a new life on the horizon.
And breaking this golden cage
I feel the lie of my freedom
And walking on my mistakes
I scratched the walls of darkness
And breaking this golden cage
I feel the night in brightness

A bird deceives me and steals away my soul
My emotions are lost in time
tears of rain slip away from my cold face
This is the finish line

You know I know you’re praying for Silversnake
Your insanity turned off my brain.

Colors Of Memory

I wanna live forever,
You’re listening sounds of memory
The sugar of freedom snows on us
White Lady come and kiss me
“You’re looking at the wrong way to follow”
Disheartened black trees shout to me
Blurred borders of
Liquefied reality
So many walls I’ve painted
One, none, hundred thousand me
My stubborn and moody nature
Spiteful ghosts silver me…

And I’m flying around this wave…

The raging blue sea is trapping me
Green leaves on tree are dancing with
Your breathing blows light inside of me
My Empty body… disappears

Shine you shadow of memory
Seize colors of harmony
I know I hid the key of my dark(hell) jail
Day by day
Rainbow grey
I dig the ocean and I fall in a grave
Blue and red
Stay in bed
Thundery colors in my head

I wanna live forever
I’m looking shapes of memory
It’s raining golden lemons
Sunflowers try to kill me
“You’re looking at the wrong way to follow”
spiteful ghosts whisper to me

The raging blue sea is trapping me
Green leaves on tree are dancing with
Your breath blows light inside of me…

Shine shadows of memory
Seize colours of harmony
I know I hid the key of my jail-hell
Day by day
Rainbow grey
I dig myself and I fall in a grave
Blue and red
Stay in bed
Thundery colours in my head

…I wanna live forever
You’re listening voice of eternity…

Puddles Of Light

Never turn around, fly away
I didn’t tell you what you said to me
Don’t think of me cause we are losers
The story of Earth has never been
Ten million of years in so few time
All our lives we already lived
We are only a projection of a far light
Now we belong to the dreams of stars
The truth in front of me
Erased by oblivion of eternity

Following you
Puddles of light stab my past now
The endless edge seems wet paper
Land and air interlace
Rock my fanta-lie
Fuck my mind,
My story is you
Stop again

Turn off the light, so I can’t exist
Blue butterflies get lost in the mist
Brook of sand dry up my eyes
Flecks of light give us new gist

I Steal The Sun

I’ m ready and I’m not alone
Great perturbation of mind
Tonight my soul is criminal
I stole dark through light
Unattended Chariot of the Sun
The golden Horses of Fire
My emotions are cold and minimal
I’ll steal sun through the Night

They have fear of the light
Put your love in that sound
Free from superstitions
Lick the blue

They have fear of the light
Cold and expressionless game
Free from our freedom
We can do

Driving, speeding, challenge them
We’re awake to danger and
They won’t take us
We make it
The plot thickens now

Jump away and laugh aloud
Defy the gravity is not allowed
Fuck the right way, the wrong way
Tonight I steal the Sun

On TV big news tonight
The day will never rise
The sadness of Northern Star
Blanket cold come on in leaden sky

They have fear of the light
Put your love in that sound
Free from superstitions
Lick the blue

They have fear of the light
Cold and expressionless game
Free from our freedom
We can do

Driving, speeding, challenge them
We’re awake to danger and
They won’t take us
We make it
The plot thickens now

Jump away and laugh aloud
Defy the gravity is not allowed
Fuck the right way, the wrong way
Tonight I steal the Sun

Under My Pencil

You believe that somebody wants to delay
You feel my pencil graze your wave
I wanna portray you in sunny way
But in the picture it’s rainy day
Vertigo of my fancies smoke away

I play with your imaginary world
You’re born under my pencil-mind
And the sense of life are slowly blinds
while we getting old, tonight
Vertigo of my fancies run away

Show me when
Show me why
Show me how
You feel tears and joy, emotions in your unreal mind

You are a victim of mine
o-o-o-o-ohh
You’ll never decide
You run away through the pines
o-o-o-o-ohh
but I lead your actions and life
I need you here cause I feel alone,
You need me there cause you need my blow
You wander in the fog…without me

I’m painting you with a red knife
I only keep the secret of your life
I repress all revolts of your mind
You’re only puppet in my hands , tonight.
Vertigo of my fancies smoke away

Show me when
(I can’t explain what I am
I’m the star of show
I don’t need to create a song
Cause I’ll never be alone
You forget who you are
And your pencil draws my life
And I feel the being of me)
Show me why
Show me how
You feel tears and joy, emotions in your unreal mind

You are a victim of mine
o-o-o-o-ohh
You’ll never decide
You run away through the pines
o-o-o-o-ohh
but I lead your actions and life
I need you here cause I feel alone,
You need me there cause you need my blow
You wander in the fog… without me

Waiting For Yesterday

Overwhelming emotions get tired of chasing you
Following you in useless promises
But you have a strange way to love; I don’t need to
And now I’m naked and dressed of dust
Squared sphere, its running over me
Silent words that wear me out
I suddenly lost my past’s empire
I’m breathing your hugs tonight

And now the sunset was turning red
I breath your smell through a photograph
And the dead seasons wanked becoming dread
Our shady love becoming bust and bad
Now swallows change the zephyr’s wake
Pink scorpions have broken the wall of break
Your cruel words are creeping into my head like a snake
Child’s fear resurfaces

We are staring at dawn
Waiting for yesterday
Don’t you pray?
New uprising
In your heart
I scream till I die of myself
Stinking night

Faceless man injured the lily of my childhood
I feel interrupted, here and now
Sick, jerky and raging masturbation of body and mind
Hold me strong, mofo night

Snowy

Among the firs, I saw the evening singing awake
and you choke in a meaningless whirl
I read in you, I won’t forsake
sand buries your nerve and your pearl

I feel the passion of your kisses on my lips
but your fear pinch your heart with tips,
mirror murmurs and whispers you
words written in my trips

Nothing is more snowy
than two souls who’re skimming like ours,
but if you run away from me
once again you will hide your flowers

Tonight for the first time we met the Love
The wild and overbearing fire
you are a dream in my heart

Tears dig furrows inside of me
everything is clear in me
doubt lies around

And tonight when we made love
The stars flow mute and lead my secret above
you go away, loneliness frame
Feel me full of shame, cause I feel we flame
but you disclaim it and
yourself

I hated the evening suffering the gift of love
monotonous and deadwood at home
I slump, but I challenge my mistakes
and I will win, I win, I won

Nothing is more snowy
than two hearts in desert that chase for years
You won’t believe weak lies I’ll say
Don’t hurt me, don’t doom my fears

Numb

I’ve got a secret,
And I won’t tell you
A boring night is killing me
There is a dry, hot and rarified air
Velvet rain ravishes and burns my fire

Red-hot night in orgy game
Passion borns through colors of sounds
Dripping words, written in the sky of fame
I see your love that stifles all the clouds

Touch me
Kiss me
Love me
Together we rain
Catch me
Leave me
Dreaming
I’ve got no pain

There is a wall in the ocean
One side is black, otherside is blue
You play guitar towards sunset of night
Mermaid’s dance is already begun

Rescue me from myself
You kiss me and I feel numb
A black sword into my heart
Can’t stop and I ride the bird of paradise

Silversnake Slow Steps (Unplugged)

Lazy night of a starry fall
I told myself new lies
I don’t surrender and I fight against my wall
I’m looking at the moon and She’s crying

I met faeries dark orgasm of my past
and black creatures of the Night
Heinous, evil thick sea make me blasted
I steal the sun through puddles of light

So in my mind gets strong Silversnake (Where are you tonight?)
My insanity shake your brain

Walking and praying day by day
Anticlockwise life is not astray
Waiting for yesterday
Inside of me... disarray

Walking on my mistakes
I live new life over horizon
And breaking that golden cage
There is no lie in my freedom

Crazy nights of tears to pick up my life
Becoming warrior of the Light,
Under my pencil, I imagine the end of strife
Colors of memory will bright

So in my mind gets numb Silversnake (I sold my mind, tonight?)
My whims defy your snowy pain

Walking and praying day by day
Anticlockwise life is not astray
Waiting for yesterday
Inside of me... disarray

Walking on my mistakes
I graze the walls of darkness
And breaking that golden cage
I met the light in the darkness

Starry night of lazy fall

I’ll tell myself deepest lie

You know, I see you though if you’re only ghost

Slender moon in the sky

I implored the rain to melt my hardened heart

I prayed for the wind to kidnap me

All my life I‘ve stopped at the start line

Now I've fallen into a black and thick sea


So in my mind, was born SilverSnake

Chasing the dragon now, you lick my brain


I felt the cold stone whisper to me

Trapped in a smell of flowers

I don’t see colors and sounds of history

my sweaty skin and wheezing hours

A nightmare screamed at me 4 and 48

I feel your time is over

your shadow flies away beyond the clouds

I can’t feel your essence anywhere


So in my mind, was born SilverSnake

Your insanity sucked my brain


And walking on my mistakes

I’ll see a new life on the horizon.

And breaking this golden cage

I feel the lie of my freedom

And walking on my mistakes

I scratched the walls of darkness

And breaking this golden cage

I feel the night in brightness


A bird deceives me and steals away my soul

My emotions are lost in time

tears of rain slip away from my cold face

This is the finish line


You know I know you’re praying for Silversnake

Your insanity turned off my brain.

I wanna live forever,

You’re listening sounds of memory

The sugar of freedom snows on us

White Lady come and kiss me

“You’re looking at the wrong way to follow”

Disheartened black trees shout to me

Blurred borders of

Liquefied reality

So many walls I’ve painted

One, none, hundred thousand me

My stubborn and moody nature

Spiteful ghosts silver me…


And I’m flying around this wave…


The raging blue sea is trapping me

Green leaves on tree are dancing with

Your breathing blows light inside of me

My Empty body… disappears


Shine you shadow of memory

Seize colors of harmony

I know I hid the key of my dark(hell) jail

Day by day

Rainbow grey

I dig the ocean and I fall in a grave

Blue and red

Stay in bed

Thundery colors in my head


I wanna live forever

I’m looking shapes of memory

It’s raining golden lemons

Sunflowers try to kill me

“You’re looking at the wrong way to follow”

spiteful ghosts whisper to me


The raging blue sea is trapping me

Green leaves on tree are dancing with

Your breath blows light inside of me…


Shine shadows of memory

Seize colours of harmony

I know I hid the key of my jail-hell

Day by day

Rainbow grey

I dig myself and I fall in a grave

Blue and red

Stay in bed

Thundery colours in my head


…I wanna live forever

You’re listening voice of eternity…

Never turn around, fly away

I didn’t tell you what you said to me

Don’t think of me cause we are losers

The story of Earth has never been

Ten million of years in so few time

All our lives we already lived

We are only a projection of a far light

Now we belong to the dreams of stars

The truth in front of me

Erased by oblivion of eternity


Following you

Puddles of light stab my past now

The endless edge seems wet paper

Land and air interlace

Rock my fanta-lie

Fuck my mind,

My story is you

Stop again


Turn off the light, so I can’t exist

Blue butterflies get lost in the mist

Brook of sand dry up my eyes

Flecks of light give us new gist

I’ m ready and I’m not alone

Great perturbation of mind

Tonight my soul is criminal

I stole dark through light

Unattended Chariot of the Sun

The golden Horses of Fire

My emotions are cold and minimal

I’ll steal sun through the Night


They have fear of the light

Put your love in that sound

Free from superstitions

Lick the blue


They have fear of the light

Cold and expressionless game

Free from our freedom

We can do


Driving, speeding, challenge them

We’re awake to danger and

They won’t take us

We make it

The plot thickens now


Jump away and laugh aloud

Defy the gravity is not allowed

Fuck the right way, the wrong way

Tonight I steal the Sun


On TV big news tonight

The day will never rise

The sadness of Northern Star

Blanket cold come on in leaden sky


They have fear of the light

Put your love in that sound

Free from superstitions

Lick the blue


They have fear of the light

Cold and expressionless game

Free from our freedom

We can do


Driving, speeding, challenge them

We’re awake to danger and

They won’t take us

We make it

The plot thickens now


Jump away and laugh aloud

Defy the gravity is not allowed

Fuck the right way, the wrong way

Tonight I steal the Sun

You believe that somebody wants to delay

You feel my pencil graze your wave

I wanna portray you in sunny way

But in the picture it’s rainy day

Vertigo of my fancies smoke away


I play with your imaginary world

You’re born under my pencil-mind

And the sense of life are slowly blinds

while we getting old, tonight

Vertigo of my fancies run away


Show me when

Show me why

Show me how

You feel tears and joy, emotions in your unreal mind


You are a victim of mine

o-o-o-o-ohh

You’ll never decide

You run away through the pines

o-o-o-o-ohh

but I lead your actions and life

I need you here cause I feel alone,

You need me there cause you need my blow

You wander in the fog…without me


I’m painting you with a red knife

I only keep the secret of your life

I repress all revolts of your mind

You’re only puppet in my hands , tonight.

Vertigo of my fancies smoke away


Show me when

(I can’t explain what I am

I’m the star of show

I don’t need to create a song

Cause I’ll never be alone

You forget who you are

And your pencil draws my life

And I feel the being of me)

Show me why

Show me how

You feel tears and joy, emotions in your unreal mind


You are a victim of mine

o-o-o-o-ohh

You’ll never decide

You run away through the pines

o-o-o-o-ohh

but I lead your actions and life

I need you here cause I feel alone,

You need me there cause you need my blow

You wander in the fog… without me

Overwhelming emotions get tired of chasing you

Following you in useless promises

But you have a strange way to love; I don’t need to

And now I’m naked and dressed of dust

Squared sphere, its running over me

Silent words that wear me out

I suddenly lost my past’s empire

I’m breathing your hugs tonight


And now the sunset was turning red

I breath your smell through a photograph

And the dead seasons wanked becoming dread

Our shady love becoming bust and bad

Now swallows change the zephyr’s wake

Pink scorpions have broken the wall of break

Your cruel words are creeping into my head like a snake

Child’s fear resurfaces


We are staring at dawn

Waiting for yesterday

Don’t you pray?

New uprising

In your heart

I scream till I die of myself

Stinking night


Faceless man injured the lily of my childhood

I feel interrupted, here and now

Sick, jerky and raging masturbation of body and mind

Hold me strong, mofo night

Among the firs, I saw the evening singing awake

and you choke in a meaningless whirl

I read in you, I won’t forsake

sand buries your nerve and your pearl


I feel the passion of your kisses on my lips

but your fear pinch your heart with tips,

mirror murmurs and whispers you

words written in my trips


Nothing is more snowy

than two souls who’re skimming like ours,

but if you run away from me

once again you will hide your flowers


Tonight for the first time we met the Love

The wild and overbearing fire

you are a dream in my heart


Tears dig furrows inside of me

everything is clear in me

doubt lies around


And tonight when we made love

The stars flow mute and lead my secret above

you go away, loneliness frame

Feel me full of shame, cause I feel we flame

but you disclaim it and

yourself


I hated the evening suffering the gift of love

monotonous and deadwood at home

I slump, but I challenge my mistakes

and I will win, I win, I won


Nothing is more snowy

than two hearts in desert that chase for years

You won’t believe weak lies I’ll say

Don’t hurt me, don’t doom my fears

I’ve got a secret,

And I won’t tell you

A boring night is killing me

There is a dry, hot and rarified air

Velvet rain ravishes and burns my fire


Red-hot night in orgy game

Passion borns through colors of sounds

Dripping words, written in the sky of fame

I see your love that stifles all the clouds


Touch me

Kiss me

Love me

Together we rain

Catch me

Leave me

Dreaming

I’ve got no pain


There is a wall in the ocean

One side is black, otherside is blue

You play guitar towards sunset of night

Mermaid’s dance is already begun


Rescue me from myself

You kiss me and I feel numb

A black sword into my heart

Can’t stop and I ride the bird of paradise

Lazy night of a starry fall

I told myself new lies

I don’t surrender and I fight against my wall

I’m looking at the moon and She’s crying


I met faeries dark orgasm of my past

and black creatures of the Night

Heinous, evil thick sea make me blasted

I steal the sun through puddles of light


So in my mind gets strong Silversnake (Where are you tonight?)

My insanity shake your brain


Walking and praying day by day

Anticlockwise life is not astray

Waiting for yesterday

Inside of me... disarray


Walking on my mistakes

I live new life over horizon

And breaking that golden cage

There is no lie in my freedom


Crazy nights of tears to pick up my life

Becoming warrior of the Light,

Under my pencil, I imagine the end of strife

Colors of memory will bright


So in my mind gets numb Silversnake (I sold my mind, tonight?)

My whims defy your snowy pain


Walking and praying day by day

Anticlockwise life is not astray

Waiting for yesterday

Inside of me... disarray


Walking on my mistakes

I graze the walls of darkness

And breaking that golden cage

I met the light in the darkness